Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Nice To Meet You, I'm Your Other Half

'Cause when I looked you in the eyes, and you dared to stare right back, you should've said, "Nice to meet you, I'm your other half"

That's what I want. But when will it happen? Will it even happen at all? I just want to know. I know I'm right for the job. I'm right for her. I care alot for her. I love seeing her. I feel great when I'm with her. I have so much fun, and such a better attitude when I see her. When she talks to me with a smile. Kinda like this: =]

But does she feel that same feeling I do? I wish I knew. I know she likes being with me and has a great time being friends. But I wish it could be more.

It was great meeting you. I think I'm your other half.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Communication, Miscommunication, Or Neither.

Communication is key in any relationship.

People are easily misunderstood. Everybody makes this mistake. And people need to realize that. Yes, you may be frustrated, but you do the same thing. Nobody is perfect.
Going through relationships in my life, I have come to realize that. But I want to communicate. It does some crazy thing called letting people know what's up. How am I supposed to know what's going on in your life. What are you thinking? If you have something you need to say, say it.

"Why don't you come right out and say it? Even if the words are probably gonna hurt, I'd rather have the truth than something insincere." -Relient K "Come Right Out And Say It"

I hate it when people don't tell me stuff when it needs to be said. I think it's ridiculous. Because then, they get mad at you for not knowing. This is because they somehow think that you should know already. There's the lack of communication. I can't stress enough how much it bothers me.
I guess that's life.
Talk to me. Tell me what you're REALLY thinking, don't tell me what you WANT me to think.

Say Yes Because You Want To

The word yes.
Every person says this word at some point in their life. But is it for the right reason?
I find many people saying yes because they're afraid of no. They can't find it in themselves to say the word no. This is usually because they think that they care too much about the other person to disappoint them with that simple, yet very strong word. So they say yes to the person. But guess what?
IT NEVER ENDS WELL.
This person says yes to the other person, only to let them down in the long run. Personally, I don't like it when I'm lied to in that situation. I appreciate the thought, but people need to know whether you really want to or not. Don't be afraid of saying no. Just say yes if you truly mean it.
Say yes because you want to, not because you think you have to.

A Cry For Consistency

Some say that consistency is an easy task to surmount. Some say that it's hard. But with the difficulty of being consistent aside, it is highly admirable in my book.
One can see any two people together, as a couple, or even as friends. How is the relationship between them? Are they in good terms with eachother? Do they love the same way that they did when it all started, or is it even better than it was?
.....Or is it worse? Are they slowly slipping away from eachother? Is that flame between them not being kindled enough?
In a relationship, be it dating or just as friends, you need to be consistent. If you found a way to love that person in the beginning, you can still find that love again. Every day when you wake up, the love should still be the same as it was yesterday. Hopefully this is a good love. You need to still love that person for the same reason you did before, that being if it was for a good reason in the first place. There is no reason to let up the love you have to offer.
Stay strong. Stay consistent.
Consistency. It makes you think, doesn't it?

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Good God, Can You Still Get Us Home?

He will be there. When we run, stumble, and fall, he will be there to lift us back up. God will lift us back up. God will be there to get us home.
I'm a believer in a second chance. I like to give them, and I like to get them myself. I have gone for many runs in my life. But I have stumbled and fallen many times. But I can live on by knowing that my, our, good God can still get me back home. After pain and suffering, God is there to pick me back up off the floor.
Alongside with the fact that I know God can still get me home, I know that it's possible to get myself back on my feet. Dust off my shoulders and arms. Get all of that dirt off of me, and start clean again.
"Don't give up, it's not the end. There's hope for every fallen man. To pick themselves up when they think they can't, because with every passing second comes a second chance. Don't give up, it's not the end. Get back up on your feet again. Forgiveness can be given when you think it can, because with every passing second comes a second chance."
Thanks to God, I know that I have that second chance. Always. I just need to ask for it. It comes willingly and gracefully. God's grace is so good. His forgiveness is amazing.
And I am thankful for it.

Our Good God Can Still Get Us Home

A Life Inventory

What am I doing with it? What do I want to do with it? Why am I doing what I'm doing right now?
Those are the questions that haunt me daily. I find myself watching my life fly by sometimes. I like to think that what I'm doing with my life as of now is good, but I'm sure there's more to be discovered. Maybe I could be doing better. Maybe I can make an attempt at a better approach to life.
But I do think that it is important to find these answers. It is in fact a part of life to find yourself. That is one of life's great journeys, given to us by God. We have been given the golden opportunity to make this life great. Are you who you want to be? Am I who I want to be? Those questions are not impossible to answer.
I need to take a life inventory. Go back in my life. Start from the beginning. Go through every moment I can remember until this second in time. Do I like what I've done with myself so far, and do I like who and what I am now? What do I value? What do I think deserves to be appreciated, and what do I want to appreciate?
I want to make my life something. Right now, I am halfway watching my life blow up like a ticking time bomb. But then another part of me is still blooming like the cherry blossoms do in the beginning of spring. I was once a different person. Everybody changes through their life, or at least thats what I like to think. I am in that group of "everybody". My life is changing. I'm starting to find myself. As I go through life, I start to figure out what my values are. I start to discover what I truly love doing.
A Life Inventory

Look At What I've Become

"The end is justified by the pain it took to get us there"-Relient K's "Let It All Out"

I completely agree with what is said here. It took me a few times listening to it until it really impacted me. It made me think. Everybody goes through cruddy times. Everyone has ups and downs. Nobody is perfect, nobody can be perfect. Nothing is perfect, nothing can be perfect. Life is just tackling everything that is thrown at you every day. It is through many good times, and also many bad times that make us who we are. I find myself asking myself many times: Exactly why do we go through pain? Why do we suffer? If our lives were perfect, we wouldn't find ourselves asking these questions.
My life is not perfect. I have gone through good times, and really crappy times as well. I love those good moments, but I extremely hate dealing with crappy stuff. But I am who I am right now as I am writing this because of every single life experience. Every single day is something new. This pain and suffering can be caused by many things, but it shapes who we become as people. It has shaped who and what I've become. We as people were created to discover all that's out there. To try and figure out for ourselves what the good stuff is, and the bad as well. Our lives are constant journeys. We're trying to find out what we want to do with ourselves, and how we want to get there. But the struggle is to find that. That is why we go through hardships. It takes pain to achieve a goal, it's not all easy going. And I know that, I'm living that every day. This life is about going through that pain to get to that point of content. That is what we want. I know that I have to achieve that. I want to achieve it. And I know that this suffering will all be worth it in the end.
The end is justified by the pain it took to get us there.